I’m raw. Trust me, I’m aware. I no longer ask why. Or am getting better at not going down that trail of disaster. I’m functioning on reserves of the well. Surrender happens when you no longer know what to seek. When the only thing you seek is the Face. Meet me eye to eye. Search my tears. Search my fears. Rid me of my bitterness and jealousy. Rid me of the need to know.
God is the only One who can answer my soul. The mass delusion of the world. Thanks friend. Thanks friend for reminding me that we idolize celebrities and others who lives appear perfect. The happiest relationships. The money to not worry about anything. God is stripping me of false idols. The more I see, the more I need to disconnect. Be happy and prosper. I’m finding that nothing is satisfying my soul.
In seven days, I’ve been stripped bare. I’ve not been able to accept that you could love me as well as you do. But, you, are faithful in your love for me. And it’s your love keeping me afloat. You give me all of yourselves. Thank you friends.
What I need
Manna from Heaven
Is your love
For this
Sinner
Holding you in prayer, my friend.
ReplyDeleteYou are right about celebrities. They sometimes seem to have it all, but I think often they are the least happy.
ReplyDeleteGod Is with you, Rue. Many times we seek in this world, what can only be found in the cross and we mistake delusion and emotions with love and happiness.
ReplyDeleteIt's not wrong to pursue happiness and what we wish for, if it is according to God's Word and Will. And it is okay for us to want to be happy.
I'm sure God doesn't want us to be unhappy; after all He Is our Father.
So, keep aspiring to do His Will for your life and ask Him to help you stop comparing to others.
One verse of the Bible I love is James 1:5-8, because I need constantly to be reminded of not comparing my life to other people's lives, so I always ask God for wisdom on how to do that and He gives it to me!
"If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do."
You have been through a lot recently which only compounds every raw feeing you might have. Sending my best to you.
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ReplyDeleteBest wishes for you
Stay strong
ReplyDeleteDon't be so hard on yourself, darling!
ReplyDeleteYou ROCK!
xoxox,
CC
Sending you a lot of positive vibes!
ReplyDeleteYou've been though a lot an definitely deserve happiness!
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A lot of us have seen the light and found the need to disconnect from these idols we've wasted too much time admiring. God is the only one I worship and the only one I believe in. Blessings to you
ReplyDeleteSending you lots of love and hugs xx
ReplyDeleteI've never really been one to revere or look up to celebrities; most of them seem to have waaaay more problems than "regular" folk!
ReplyDeletePrayers to you, my friend. ♥
ReplyDeleteGod is guiding and leading you in His way, Regine. Yes, we are all praying!
ReplyDeleteHang in there, Regine! You are in my thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeleteHope all is ok. XOXO
ReplyDeleteMay God wrap around you like a blanket of comfort and love.
ReplyDelete~Sheri
Praying for the Peace that passes all understanding to be your strength and stay as you recover
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Maxine
Yes we can't live the life of others or compare, we don't know what is going on in their minds and relationships we see the all good not the broken down bare life they really lead.
ReplyDeleteIt's only natural to feel this way after everything you've been through lately. You're still standing and you're enough. Be sure to take care of your mental health as well as your physical health my friend. Wishing you strength and sending you love.
ReplyDeleteTe envío fuerza y un gran abrazo.
ReplyDeleteYour writing... so raw and truthful to who you are and what you are releasing and yielding into. Always in the moment is where we find that love and healing - it cant be in the past and isn't yet in the future. I have a feeling you spend many moments being here now and the miracle we all search for - is the miracle showing us that nothing was ever wrong except an error (sin) of thinking we are not the beautiful child of God. Keep yielding to the truth of you. You are Light. and You are a light to the world of those who pass by and read your words.
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