Friday, October 11, 2024

Moi

 Things are returning to normal here. What has not returned to normal is me. Therapy is ongoing, but folks, it takes time. I don’t know what is happening, but I’m coming up for air slowly. Gratitude and grief mix in a beautiful serenade. I hardened my heart, but it’s being softened again. Just because the world is cruel or unfair doesn’t give me permission to do the same. As one of you had to remind me, I no longer hide my pain, but others do by projecting joy to the outside world. And that is their choice. 

On behalf of myself, I thank you for being a sounding board. A safe place. The true measure of wealth is receiving love when nothing of value can be returned. 

I will recover. It’s just not on my timetable. I love you. 

8 comments:

  1. Hang in there, and may God bless you always.

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  2. Good to hear things are better. Rest up. I hope you have a lovely weekend.

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  3. I love your honesty and wish you all the strength in your journey back to normal. Consider that perhaps you've evolved and you need a new normal now. I'm glad you're no longer hiding your pain because life isn't always sunshine and rainbows and it's perfectly fine to not be okay with that. You got this <3

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  4. I am glad you have this space. Everyone handles hardship in their own way. It is good to share even when things are not great. I think it helps one feel less along and also there are probably people out there suffering in silence who can relate and then they in turn feel less alone.

    Allie of
    www.allienyc.com

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  5. You will recover! But I know it's hard and slow. I'm glad you feel you can share here. It's important to let it out.

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  6. Time can be a hard thing to have patience for, but I hope you do. Be strong. And tough. And have a happy weekend too. hugs-Erika

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  7. It all takes time, give it to yourself.

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