I’m okay physically. Mentally, I’m coming out of survival mode. I woke up last night reaching for a flashlight I no longer need. I rode to town yesterday, and as I looked around, how I have power and water is a miracle. I open up to write and tears flow. Tears of relief and guilt mix. I asked my therapist how long this would last. Her guess. A while. I prayed for one week for power, and one the seventh day, He delivered. Honestly, I doubted after day two, but God was showing me something. I’m strong. You do things you never thought you would.
I got rid of so many undergarments. Please don’t think going to the bathroom outdoors is an easy task for everyone. My pride had to go. Doing laundry by hand is exercise. The washing machine is a luxury. I know now why on the seventh day rest is commanded.
I have power and water. Gratitude holds new meaning. I will continue writing, I don’t know how it will look.
Grace
What
I need
As I move forward
Not forgetting
That suffering
Happens every day
Yet we persist
My life
Not my own
Anymore
Dreaming of
Exotic places
And wild spaces
Yet knowing
The next steps
Will require
Courage
Navigating
Silver spooned
Blue blooded
Nature doesn’t discriminate
Until the fire
Refines you
Compassion
Is not a given
When the
Trials of humanity
Come to the door
Yours
Do you
Give freely
Willingly
And without pretense
What seven days
Shows
Is change happens
Even as our
Eyes are
Wide open
Gratefulness
And grief
Intertwine
Positivity
Meets reality
In a delicate dance
I never wanted
To partake in
What a blessing to realize that God gives you what you need!
ReplyDeleteBut here you are. That is something to celebrate.
ReplyDeleteSometimes we're stronger than we realize.
ReplyDeleteFaith can give us all the strength we need. Thank you very much for sharing your words and your experiences. Have a blessed day!
I'm glad you have power and water and you are still here and sharing!
ReplyDeleteA nice post of gratitude and thankfulness. Beautiful. All praise and Glory to God Almighty!
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ReplyDeleteBe strong
ReplyDeleteSo glad you survived. Thanks for your post and your gratitude. Many continued prayers for you and those around you. Stay Strong. Stay Positive.
ReplyDeleteGratefulness And grief Intertwine - so very, very true. Life is never a smooth path of just one emotion, but rather everything intertwines... prayers
ReplyDeleteBlessings
Maxine
Gosh, I wondered how you were doing. We miraculously got power back after only three days, but so many have had to wait. Are still waiting. I'm guessing you have well water? No water on top of no power is a double blow. Such common things can become a huge test! Take a deep breath. You're on the other side of it now.
ReplyDeleteI am SO sorry to hear you were hit with the hurricane! This one will not be as easy as others to bounce back from. I am still praying for all involved, this was such a nightmare. Give yourself grace. God did not leave you (though it might have felt like it) nor did he forsake you. I am rejoicing with you to have power restored.
ReplyDeleteYou shared well here and you are moving on with faith. Prayers continue.
ReplyDeleteContinued prayers and wishes for strength.
ReplyDeleteAll the best Jan