Monday, January 31, 2022

Humbling

 I’m contemplating what to share. I probably will in due course, but right now, I’m sitting with it. Every day I accept even more parts of the story that God is showing me. I have to remember this:  It’s not for my glory, but for His. If I share now, my pride and pain will show. Each day is like shedding a layer of skin. A layer of that soft exterior that leads to a hard interior. I know what I fear, I’m just trying to extract it delicately. An event happened this weekend that only He could use for others, but for me too. There isn’t a manual for how deep rooted emotions can occur from something good happening. God didn’t bless me to be a multi-tasking human. Walking and chewing gum at the same time is as much as I can handle. A euphemism yes. A lie, no. I often wonder how many layers we humans have. It’s honestly exhausting.  There is work to do on my soul, mind and body. More than I can say. More than I want to admit. I’ve been a perpetual work in progress for years with no signs of abating. Learning how to be independent physically is mentally draining. It’s a task that needs to be done. It’s not linear. It has more zigs and zags than a maze. Please treasure your independence. It’s a pain to gain. When people can’t see your disability and you have to spell it out and prove it, it is humbling. All this to say, I’m healing, but there is still more to be done. I pray you all are well. 

25 comments:

  1. As long as you're healing then you're on the right path.

    Have a fabulous day and week, Regine. ♥

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  2. You are very right, It’s not for your glory, but for His.
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  3. Sounds like each day is a step forward for you, that's wonderful progress. All of us are works in progress, sometimes we move forward, sometimes we move backward, and sometimes we throw a lateral...but, the important part is to keep going.
    Sandy's Space

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  4. When you are ready. Sadly I hear you on the work in progress front. And often take steps backwards too - to my shame.

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  5. Lots of strength, Chris. Big hug.🌿🌸

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  6. And I lift prayers for you, Regine. We all have our different struggles in life, and I know yours are particularly challenging. God is right there with you; I can sense that deeply in your writing.
    Blessings!

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  7. Invisible disabilities and illnesses are especially tough because while you may look fine, no one can see how you might be struggling or are in pain. You are brave and you are strong. Don't ever forget that <3

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  8. when you are ready...

    please take care!!

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  9. You should have visited Bill today... You would have liked it.
    You should think less about yourself and care more about true friendships...
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    1. I'm sure you comment didn't mean to sound harsh but it came across as mean spirited.

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  10. It takes much courage to been vulnerable on a public forum such as a blog. Continue to allow God to peel away those layers and yes it is very exhausting. Remember God isn't done with you and I believe He will use you in a mighty way to encourage other people with disabilties. You could even consider writing a book.

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  11. This is so beautifully stated, Regine. Yes, it does take courage and I admire that you can do so this publicly and of course know there are things you may never choose to share and that is fine. Exhausting? Yes. Valuable? Indeed it is.

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  12. Healing is good. I hope you have a great week.

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  13. The best part about your posts is that you're handling of things worse than we deal with gives us examples of how to bear our loads too.

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  14. We've not been blogging friends for very long but I can tell you this, the honor is mine and I look forward to your posts and your progress. Hugs.

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  15. You are so strong and amazing from what I know about you Rue. Your journey is a rough one but your faith and strength will get you through.

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  16. It's a huge thing to realize and accept it's for His glory. I need to remind myself of that.

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  17. Little by little... holding His hand...

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  18. praying for your strength each and every day. Bless you!

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  19. Thinking of you and hoping you know how much your words help us to be better.

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  20. We are all a work in progress and will be until He comes and takes us Home. Continue to fight the good fight, pressing into Him as He equips you for each day!

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  21. After over 50 years, God is still working out his purposes in perfecting me, and that will not be completed until I enter eternity. I hear you about the layers - we are truly fearfully made, and incredibly complex beings. Keep up the great work and walk close to God
    Stay safe
    Blessings
    Maxine

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