Happy Monday. It’s a good day because I’m alive, and grateful for all your love on my previous post. Somebody asked in the previous post that they’d need to know my medical history to understand why I wrote what I did. Let me tell you, if I understood it myself, maybe I’d share. The fact is, I don’t. My doctors don’t. Right now, I don’t know how or why what happened happened if that makes sense. I can’t worry about the why right now. All I can focus on is repairing the damage. I’m under no illusion that I can recover it all. I’m just on a journey to rebuild what can be rebuilt. There is no toxic positivity here. I just have to remain hopeful. If my mind goes, so goes the body. And that is something that I’m in position to lose.
I’m learning daily that my mind needs to be fed the same or better than my physical body right now. I’m having to be boring. No travel for awhile. My body needs to be strengthened to a certain degree before everyone is comfortable with me leaving to go anywhere but to the doctor’s office. Reality can be a buzzkill. So right now, I vacillate between a dream and a reality I must face.
Love you all
I hope you're able to get answers about your health so you can continue moving forward with your healing, Regine <3
ReplyDeleteSo inspiring! All the best to meeting your goals this January!
ReplyDeleteHapoy Monday
ReplyDeleteLIfe is not an episode of House or the PItt or any medical show where issues are diagnosed and treated in an hour (not counting commercials). And as smart at we think we are, there are a lot of thing that medical professionals and scientists don't have all the answers to treat conditions. Add in that each of us is a distinct individual, well there we go.
ReplyDeleteYou are doing you. It sounds like you have found medical professionals you trust are doing what they can. We are your outlet for you frustrations and celebrations.
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These are wise words, and you know your mind and body best, so do for it what you need to. I'm glad you're learning about what suits you best. Have a very nice week, Regine. love you.
ReplyDeleteTake good care of yourself, my dear. Praying for you and hoping the doctors can give you answers soon!
ReplyDeletePrayers and hugs to you. You are an amazing person.
ReplyDeleteLove and healing hugs, Regine.
ReplyDeleteHave a blessed day and week. ♥